I know that I am not a perfect mom, but roughly, I’m doing my best to become the best mom in the world and a wife as well. Knowing the fact, becoming a mom is not that easy, you have to figure out all things you have to do, if it is good or not. It is more difficult when you’re working; you really have to set your priorities.
I worked 8hrs a day so perhaps I don’t have much time to spend with my son. Everytime, I felt so guilty for not playing with and relishing my son so I rationalize my feelings by saying I choose “quality time” over “quantity time.” I choose this because I wanted to help my husband financially and I wanted that we can still support our needs and wants despite of the crisis.
I may not be a perfect mom but I will make sure that I am always there for my son most especially when he needs me. Availability means I am open and give myself willingly– without regret. If I have a busy schedule, I have to make it a priority to carve out time to give my son focused attention. I don’t want that Alvio (my son) thinks that I prioritize my work than him and let him think that he is no longer important to us anymore, no, that’s not true!
The most crucial part of ours is not having a nanny; we both have a work so we need someone to take in charge to take care of our son. It’s really difficult to trust someone that you didn’t know, but we have no choice – to face the risk. You really have to invest in exchange for their services. That’s life; there are circumstances that you leave no choice but to go to risky decision.
I’m afraid because most of the time Alvio is always with his nanny so there’s a higher possibility of attachment that Alvio will look for the nanny rather than to me. I don’t like that to happen so after work I spend time with him and value the moment. The least I could do is to always kiss, hug and told him that I love him so much.
There are different types of problems that come along to our journey, but here we are continuously fighting for a better life. Problems are not an excuse to give up instead we take them as a challenge. Despite of many challenges we encounter we’re still be able to see the sparks of wisdom, hope and joy which may lead us for stronger relationship.